Have you ever asked yourself this question "where do I belong or fit in? " well thats where I'm at today. Just been struggling with this question. I know that God has a place for me and I know that I do fit somehwere in this puzzle we call life but i've been really struggling with this.
I look at different things and i'm not really fitting in or even think that I belong. Here are some of those thoughts.....
I have two boys not girls so i dont' fit in that group, my kids go to public school so i dont' fit in to the group of the ones who homeschool, I work outside of the home while kids are in school so i'm not in the group with the stay at home moms, my boys are in elementary and one almost in middle schoool so i dont' fit in with the ones who have small children, i'm 32 and married so i dont' fit in the young people group, I'm 32 with and some of the ones who have middle school aged kids well lets just say not in my age bracket that we would have anything in common, and at work I'm not in that college years with no responsiblities so I dont fit in that group either. I'm just really struggling with this. I feel like most of my days I am either alone or I have my boys with me I rarely get to spend time one on one with my husband due to this new schedule which i'm thankful for his new job dont' get me wrong it's just really hard to get time in there with us trying to work our two work scheudles our that we dont' have to get a babysitter for the boys ever, which that dn't happen either. not too many babysitters lined up lol . I keep telling myself in a few years kristofer will be old enough to watch his brother for a date night or something so I know it will happen. I just feel really disconnected with everyone and everything makes me wonder was I really ever connected in the first place.
This is just my thoughts for today praying that God gives me some direction and helps me figure out where do I belong and fit in !
Monday, January 16, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
overcoming obstacles and bragging on Dad!
I have been thinking about the past years of obstacles that we have had to overcome and wow all I can say God is good. I love when people say you can't do something and God shows up and shows off and guess what you can do it thru Christ!
I was watching Kolton earlier today and watching how many obstacles he has come thru these past few years of his life. wow God has His hand on him and I'm amazed at what they said he couldn't do he is doing and I know he has things he is still working on but arent' we all? We are still a work in progress we aren't finished yet and neither is God with Kolton. I will only believe what God says about my boys not anyone else.
By no means are my boys perfect! But is there such as thing as a perfect child ... let me just answer that for you NO~!!!! But my boys have alot of ambition, I believe that they are turning out to be great young men.
Kristofer is almost in middle school wow thats hard to believe but it's coming faster than I can say it. But I see so much potential in him , not just athletic ability which he has, not just academics which he is doing great in , but so much more than all that. He is so considerate of other peoples feelings, so respectful which is a great character quality for when he starts to have girlfriends(which I wish that wasnt' happening any time soon but it will be here before i know it). He is so talented in so many areas but I'm so thankful for his heart to do the right thing. He is so innocent right now and I want to perserve that for as long as I can. I know he is going to grow up and face many challenges but my prayer is that with those challenges and obstacles he will always look to God for those answers he needs.
Kolton is growing up so fast not quite a baby anymore but still mine. He said to me the other day mom i'm not a baby anymore but I know i'm yours ! He is such a sweet boy with a passionate heart. He loves to pray for others and has so much faith that God is going to answer his prayer right then and there, sometimes i wish i had that faith of a child. Kolton may not be the straight A student like others or not really athletic like his brother but he is so much more than all of that in Gods eyes. Its hard sometimes as a mother when you see your son struggling with stuff and it comes so easy for others and all you want to do is help them but there is nothing you can really do . But I know that God is working on his life and has it all under control. I believe that what others have said about him God is going to show up and show off and everyone will know that it was the hand of God.
I was watching Kolton earlier today and watching how many obstacles he has come thru these past few years of his life. wow God has His hand on him and I'm amazed at what they said he couldn't do he is doing and I know he has things he is still working on but arent' we all? We are still a work in progress we aren't finished yet and neither is God with Kolton. I will only believe what God says about my boys not anyone else.
By no means are my boys perfect! But is there such as thing as a perfect child ... let me just answer that for you NO~!!!! But my boys have alot of ambition, I believe that they are turning out to be great young men.
Kristofer is almost in middle school wow thats hard to believe but it's coming faster than I can say it. But I see so much potential in him , not just athletic ability which he has, not just academics which he is doing great in , but so much more than all that. He is so considerate of other peoples feelings, so respectful which is a great character quality for when he starts to have girlfriends(which I wish that wasnt' happening any time soon but it will be here before i know it). He is so talented in so many areas but I'm so thankful for his heart to do the right thing. He is so innocent right now and I want to perserve that for as long as I can. I know he is going to grow up and face many challenges but my prayer is that with those challenges and obstacles he will always look to God for those answers he needs.
Kolton is growing up so fast not quite a baby anymore but still mine. He said to me the other day mom i'm not a baby anymore but I know i'm yours ! He is such a sweet boy with a passionate heart. He loves to pray for others and has so much faith that God is going to answer his prayer right then and there, sometimes i wish i had that faith of a child. Kolton may not be the straight A student like others or not really athletic like his brother but he is so much more than all of that in Gods eyes. Its hard sometimes as a mother when you see your son struggling with stuff and it comes so easy for others and all you want to do is help them but there is nothing you can really do . But I know that God is working on his life and has it all under control. I believe that what others have said about him God is going to show up and show off and everyone will know that it was the hand of God.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
What a year
Well it's been awhile since I last posted but life has been a little crazy like most lifes are during the holiday season. But I think for right now life is going to go back to somewhat normal ? whatever that is lol. I am looking forward to the new year we have already made some changes from last year and I hope there are so more to come. The first one was Jimmy got his new job and he loves it and who knows what God has in storre for him there he could go up the ladder or move to the federal prison in the future but whatever it is jimmy is right in the palm of Gods perfect plan.
I have made a change to my working schedule as of December I am no longer working at the Cpc even though I loved it and it was great while it lasted but sometimes we need to make changes and its not always easy but necessary all at the same time!. God has given me another adventure for this comig season in my life I'm working at Kohls and loving it its' a fun enviroment and not as many hours as doing both jobs but a great discount and I'm around a lot of people. I"ve been really considering going back to school to do physical therapy or massage therapy not sure yet but it's an interest of mine and I am really thinking about doing something with it nothing in the workings yet though.
Life is going by so fast kids are growing up way to fast, I now know what my parents meant by cherish every moment because they will be grown before you know it. I completely agree with that .
Kristofer is going to be in middle school next year and life is about to change I have a feeling !!!! Its' going to be a new season for our family and it's going to be great I'm sure but at the same time many challenges. Kolton is doing pretty good also making progress daily and I know that there is more to come but God is doing a work and I"m excited to see what He has in store for those boys.
Well thats about it for now I'll post more later and try to once a week write in the blog !
I have made a change to my working schedule as of December I am no longer working at the Cpc even though I loved it and it was great while it lasted but sometimes we need to make changes and its not always easy but necessary all at the same time!. God has given me another adventure for this comig season in my life I'm working at Kohls and loving it its' a fun enviroment and not as many hours as doing both jobs but a great discount and I'm around a lot of people. I"ve been really considering going back to school to do physical therapy or massage therapy not sure yet but it's an interest of mine and I am really thinking about doing something with it nothing in the workings yet though.
Life is going by so fast kids are growing up way to fast, I now know what my parents meant by cherish every moment because they will be grown before you know it. I completely agree with that .
Kristofer is going to be in middle school next year and life is about to change I have a feeling !!!! Its' going to be a new season for our family and it's going to be great I'm sure but at the same time many challenges. Kolton is doing pretty good also making progress daily and I know that there is more to come but God is doing a work and I"m excited to see what He has in store for those boys.
Well thats about it for now I'll post more later and try to once a week write in the blog !
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