Letting Go of things that I shouldn't hold onto!

Wow these past few months has been like riding a roller coaster as I love roller coasters I can definetly say I didnt' like this one!  But I made a choice to ride it now I can say I decide to get off this ride and join a new enjoyment FREEDOM!  I can say it like this thesse past few months have not been a day at the amusement park, its been like I was in a battle or a war.  Battles always end up with some injuries or casulaties.  I know I'm still here but sprirtually speaking I was dead inside very wounded in the battle.  the biggest battle was in my mind. 
It all started out very small such as not feeling like I belonged, a look that I took personal, feeling like everyone was against me, ;like I was alone, being offended.  But as the days, weeks and months went by it kept getting deeper and deeper.  Then started distancing myself from activites if I thought it was going to get me more hurt, even activies that my kids were involved in I didnt' allow them to go to it, walls began to build up and bitterness and unforgiveness, hurt began to take over.  All which is sin I knew it was wrong but I still did it that is sin.  But I tried to justify it ever been there? Sin will always take you farther than you wanted to go and keep you longer than you wanted to stay. 
I can't believe how long it took me to get off this ride.  But I"m glad that Im finally off. 
I spend alot of time telling my boys that when someone does something to you no matter if they say sorry or whatever you need to make sure you forgive them because its the right thing to do thats what Jesus wants you to do.  And here I am doing the completely opposite.  Sometimes its so easy to tell everyone else what they are suppose to do but its so hard to apply it especially when its getting into our stuff!
THis past Sunday it was a day that I will never forget, its the day the ride finally stopped. 
To be completely honest I didn't want to go to church on sunday night I thought of hundered different things that I could be doing but my son Kolton said "its time for church mom we need to go" well what am I suppose to say ?So we got in the car and went.  Its easy to perform sometimes (just being honest) I have been in church my whole life and I know how you are suppose to be and I may have fooled some but not myself or most important Jesus. 
The moment Timothy Mccain got up and started speaking i felt like he was talking right at me(ever been there) I was thinking who told him lol no one did but God! And then Pastor Taylor said something that stuck out to me he said there is someone here that keeps laying it down and picking it back up now i know i may not have been the only one who needed to hear that but I was defiently one of them! I keep saying that its yours God and then picking it back up when I'm done avoiding the person or situaion completely instead of taking care of it.  But God said enough is enough its time to ROLL away the stone, and I can't roll it away on my own, but Thru Christ I can do all things! 
So the moment came for me to go thru the prayer line.  The very moment I got to the beginning of the prayer line one of the ladies touched my arm and said roll it away, I felt something starting to move and lift.  It got more intense as I went thru the line and then Timothy McCain took his hand and brushed my forehead like he was taking something off he did it a few times (another God moment because he has never met me and didnt' know anything about me) but that was the very area I was needing to roll away all those battles in the mind! 
Then as the line progrressed the presence of the Lord got stronger and stronger to wear I was not able to hardly stand up I was practically bowing the rest of the way.  But the breaking point that it was completely rolled away was when i was almost at the end of the line I barely had my eyes open as i was bent over I looked down and I seen something that literally made me wept and freedom started taking place.  One of my friends has a tattoo on her foot (you know who you are lol ) I saw that as I was going thru the line of course I ddint see her face but it was enough for me to know who it was and at that moment God spoke to me and said " You are loved you do have friends because I have given them to you let go of all those things you are holding onto" 
Now she had no idea maybe how I had been feeling but her praying for me was very powerful to my breakthrough. 
After church to have complete freedom that I wouldn't go back and pick it up I dint' avoid the situation or persons! I went to those and shared what I had been dealing with not in great detail but enough and it was a releasing moment for me and a breaking moment in my life. 
Months of bitterness, unforgiveness, anger, resentment was gone and three days later I can say I have never felt better.  I have had the best three nights of sleep that I have had in a long time better attitude in all areas of my life. 
I am so thankful for true friends who love me and are so forgiving. 
I'm loving this new ride that I'm on Freedom! I hope that you will join me on this ride.  Its so much better than the roller coaster of bitterness, unforgiveness and all that ! 

Where do I belong????

Have you ever asked yourself this question "where do I belong or fit in? " well thats where I'm at today.  Just been struggling with this question. I know that God has a place for me and I know that I do fit somehwere in this puzzle we call life but i've been really struggling with this.
I look at different things and i'm not really fitting in or even think that I belong.  Here are some of those thoughts.....
I have two boys not girls so i dont' fit in that group, my kids go to public school so i dont' fit in to the group of the ones who homeschool, I work outside of the home while kids are in school so i'm not in the group with the stay at home moms, my boys are in elementary and one almost in middle schoool so i dont' fit in with the ones who have small children, i'm 32 and married so i dont' fit in the young people group, I'm 32 with and some of the ones who have middle school aged kids well lets just say not in my age bracket that we would have anything in common, and at work I'm not in that college years with no responsiblities so I dont fit in that group either.  I'm just really struggling with this.  I feel like most of my days I am either alone or I have my boys with me I rarely get to spend time one on one with my husband due to this new schedule which i'm thankful for his new job dont' get me wrong it's just really hard to get time in there with us trying to work our two work scheudles our that we dont' have to get a babysitter for the boys ever, which that dn't happen either. not too many babysitters lined up lol .  I keep telling myself in a few years kristofer will be old enough to watch his brother for a date night or something so I know it will happen.  I just feel really disconnected with everyone and everything makes me wonder was I really ever connected in the first place. 
This is just my thoughts for today praying that God gives me some direction and helps me figure out where do I belong and fit in !

overcoming obstacles and bragging on Dad!

I have been thinking about the past years of obstacles that we have had to overcome and wow all I can say God is good.  I love when people say you can't do something and God shows up and shows off and guess what you can do it thru Christ!
I was watching Kolton earlier today and watching how many obstacles he has come thru these past few years of his life.  wow God has His hand on him and I'm amazed at what they said he couldn't do he is doing and I know he has things he is still working on but arent' we all? We are still a work in progress we aren't finished yet and neither is God with Kolton.  I will only believe what God says about my boys not anyone else. 
By no means are my boys perfect! But is there such as thing as a perfect child ... let me just answer that for you NO~!!!! But my boys have alot of ambition, I believe that they are turning out to be great young men. 
Kristofer is almost in middle school wow thats hard to believe but it's coming faster than I can say it.  But I see so much potential in him , not just athletic ability which he has, not just academics which he is doing great in , but so much more than all that.  He is so considerate of other peoples feelings, so respectful which is a great character quality for when he starts to have girlfriends(which I wish that wasnt' happening any time soon but it will be here before i know it).  He is so talented in so many areas but I'm so thankful for his heart to do the right thing.  He is so innocent right now and I want to perserve that for as long as I can.  I know he is going to grow up and face many challenges but my prayer is that with those challenges and obstacles he will always look to God for those answers he needs. 

Kolton is growing up so fast not quite a baby anymore but still mine.  He said to me the other day mom i'm not a baby anymore but I know i'm yours !  He is such a sweet boy with a passionate heart.  He loves to pray for others and has so much faith that God is going to answer his prayer right then and there, sometimes i wish i had that faith of a child.  Kolton may not be the straight A student like others or not really athletic like his brother but he is so much more than all of that in Gods eyes.  Its hard sometimes as a mother when you see your son struggling with stuff and it comes so easy for others and all you want to do is help them but there is nothing you can really do . But I know that God is working on his life and has it all under control.  I believe that what others have said about him God is going to show up and show off and everyone will know that it was the hand of God.

What a year

Well it's been awhile since I last posted but life has been a little crazy like most lifes are during the holiday season.  But I think for right now life is going to go back to somewhat normal ? whatever that is lol. I am looking forward to the new year we have already made some changes from last year and I hope there are so more to come.  The first one was Jimmy got his new job and he loves it and who knows what God has in storre for him there he could go up the ladder or move to the federal prison in the future but whatever it is jimmy is right in the palm of Gods perfect plan.
I have made a change to my working schedule as of December I am no longer working at the Cpc even though I loved it and it was great while it lasted but sometimes we need to make changes and its not always easy but necessary all at the same time!.  God has given me another adventure for this comig season in my life I'm working at Kohls and loving it its' a fun enviroment and not as many hours as doing both jobs but a great discount and I'm around a lot of people.  I"ve been really considering going back to school to do physical therapy or massage therapy not sure yet but it's an interest of mine and I am really thinking about doing something with it nothing in the workings yet though. 
Life is going by so fast kids are growing up way to fast, I now know what my parents meant by cherish every moment because they will be grown before you know it.  I completely agree with that . 
Kristofer is going to be in middle school next year and life is about to change I have a feeling !!!!  Its' going to be   a new season for our family and it's going to be great I'm sure but at the same time many challenges.  Kolton is doing pretty good  also making progress daily and I know that there is more to come but God is doing a work and I"m excited to see what He has in store for those boys. 
Well thats about it for now I'll post more later and try to once a week write in the blog !

A new additon to the family!!!!!

Well Monday early morning I got a new neice what a great new addition to the family ! It amazes me how a little baby can bring you so much happiness and change your life!  I am so looking forward to spoiling that new little neice of mine Ava Grace! But I will always love my little nephews and my other neices they are getting so big and growing up so fast.  Time really does fly by!  every one of those neices and nephews hold a special place in my heart they are all so different and thats what makes each of them so special..  children are truly a gift from God! 

School is off to a great start

Well the first two days of the new school year has went great.  The boys both love their new teachers and I am so happy it makes it so much easier to send them when you know they love it!  It's hard to believe that Kristofer is in the 5th grade last year in elementary school where did the time go i have no clue ! Kolton is in 2nd grade now growing up way too fast.  But each new season of their lifes is an exciting time.  God is going to use them both in a great way this school year and I have to trust Him to complete the great work that He has started in their lifes! 
Along with their new school year I have a new school year as well lookig forward to teaching the Creatiing Postive Relationships program to all the vigo, clay, vermillion, parke , sullivan county schools this year.  We have expanded and with that comes alot more teaching and alot more time into this program. But I know its going to be worth it .  We have made new changes to the curriculm this year and I'm really excited about that , with that I have been spending the past two afternoons makiing new stuff to go along with the curriculm trying to save the center some money adn doing some crafty things myself ! 
I'm asking God thsi year for a fresh annointing when I go into the classrooms its alot of spirtual battles that I endure while doing this program but i know that is' all worth it in the end!  God is going to change the lifes of these teenagers in this city and the surrounding cities as well I can't wait to see what happens this school year! keep us in prayer for the upcoming year !

Schools out for the summer

Well school is out for the summer!  The boys are very exctied about this and I have to say so am I !
I can't believe that i have a 5th grader and a 2nd grader now.  Time really does fly  I use to think that everyne was exhaurating when they said that but I have found it to be so true.  It seems like yesterday I found out that I was pregnant and wow look 10 years later I have two boys that are growing up before my eyes.  I have no regrets though I have spent those years raisng them and taking care of them and spending almost every day with them! 
Kolton has in the past few weeks really showed me that he is growing up and it makes me happy but sad at the same time he is my last the baby of our family !  At night before he use to go to sleep i would have to sit in their room with him until he fell asleep or if he fell asleep on the couch i would have to carry him in their bedroom  But the past few weeks he looks at me and says " I'm tired I'm going to my room to go to bed, mom you can stay in here I'm a big boy now"! 
I said to him are you sure you don't want me to sit with you ? he continues to say to me I'm a big boy now mom!  Mr. independent, I love it for somethings but seriously why do they have to grow up so fast.  I know they have to and I want them to be great mature young men but right now I wish they were just my little boys that still needed to be rocked to sleep .  I know that as they grow up they will need me for different reasons ; girl issues, advice about stuff, but I miss the moments that go by so quickly . 

                                                kolton at 5 months old

                                               kristofer at 5 months old

Dont' let anything steal your Joy

The joy of the Lord is my strength
The devil wants to steal your joy because he knows that joy is your strength, he wants you to be weak so that you won't resist the turmoil he sets against you. That is why we need each other.


I have alot of struggles and battles of the mind this week. and i'm not letting it go on anymore. I may be struck down but I'm not destroyed and I am daughter of the most high God! No weapon formed against me shall prosper I"m more than a conquer.

I'm not letting the enemey take back what I've gotten from the Lord these past few months. God is greater than anything that I'm going thru, and will go thru. I"m not stuck in all this I'm going thru it!

I know alot of people are going thru somethings right now I'm not the only person but it's good to know that God has given me friends that I know that will be there anytime of day for me and will pray with me and not talk about me! Thank you ladies you know who you are for always being there.

Faithful

God is so faithful, even when we think it's never going to happen God shows up right on time. I have seen God move in the last few weeks in so many ways I am truly blown away! Even though there may be circumstances that we dont' understand and trials that we have in our lifes, God is still God. When we dont' see God working the way we think He should we get upset and get mad or whatever but God showed me that it's not about Me or anyone else it's all about His timing and what He wants to do.
I was so blessed yesterday at church to be able to see my 7 year old son Kolton get baptized. Some may say he is too young to know what is going on but I say how do we know that God isn't working in the lifes of the young children. Didn't Jesus Himself say let the children come to me? and that in the last day He is going to pour out His Spirit among ALL flesh? to me that includes the children.
Children are so sensitve to God's prescence sometimes more than us adults. they dont care who is looking at them or what people may think that is the place that I want to be in my life!
But yesterday Kolton asked me if he could get baptized and I said yes and talked to him about it and he told me why he is suppose to do it and who am I to stand in the way of what God wants to do in his life.
He kept telling me he wants the Fire of God in his life.
He talked about it all day yesterday! I don' t care about what other people may have said about my son (medical , educators), God has the final word and He created Kolton for a purpose and that purpose will get fullfilled no matter what others may say!
Don 't let others speak negative things over your children or your grandchildren, God is writing their life story not any one else!

It's Time !

Well it's the 5th month , number 5 equals Gods grace! I was thinking about that a few minutes ago. I dont' know what God has in store for our family but I do know that it has to be good. Something good is around the corner I'm not giving up or giving in. I can't I've come to far to turn back now! God is a good God and His mercies are new every morning. I know that He has plans for us but it's not going to happen in my time But GODS time!
Not always easy to wait when you are going thru stuff and need answers but God has this undercontrol and we just need to trust in Him that He will see us thru. We are going thru not staying in this stuff!
I'm thankful for God sending me friends that always know what to say when I need it or to be there to listen to me. Thank you to my great friends!

The last few weeks

The last few weeks have been busy! We had kristofers 10th birthday party last week . It went pretty good he had a lot of friends come and he enjoyed every bit of it! Then Easter was following kristofer did a human video drama with the church it was really good(watched it after they did it on the computer )!
Then the last week of April has been filled with alot of work! I have taken on a few more house cleaning projects for two ladies and finishing up the school year with CPC. I'm going to stay pretty busy for the next month or so but wouldn't want it any other way.
God has been good to us and even though we have to wait on things God always comes thru for us everytime. Maybe not the way that we always want but we arent' in control GOD IS!
Also some other news Kristofer got asked to be on the traveling team with baseball which is a big honor, i know more work for us and more games and practices but as long as it don't become our Number 1 priority I think it will be alright!
Well here are a few pics of the past few weeks,

New Adventure!

Well I'm excited to say that I have started a new adventure while still doing the other things that I do . I have decided to become an Independent Beauty Constultnant for Mary Kay!
I am looking forward to this new adventure, nervous alittle trying something new but hey you wont' know until you try so that is what I'm going to do! Give it my all. I have a party booked already and one that wants to book later in June and I have several people responding and telling me that they have orders so I am looking forward to taking the plunge and diving right it!
So keep me in prayer as I venture out and take this step. It came along in a time that I could use it and I know that God has a plan and I'm taking a step of faith. Well if you know of anyone that wears Mary Kay and would like to know of someone who sells it I would love to help them out please let them know that they contact me and I will help them.

Baseball Season 2011

Well it's offically started BASEBALL season !!!!!!! So excited I love the boys being active and playing sports. And I love baseball season. yeah it's really busy but it's so much fun. We had Jamboree today at Terre Town Baseball and boy was it cold outside. The boys both had games today which were just kick off the season games so no score was kept and it was all for fun ! Well it's always for fun during the season but this game didnt really count!
Kolton did a great job in the outfield today, he moved up this year and is no longer in Tball ! So he did really good at paying attention and keeping his focus on the game. He had two plays in the outfield he caught the ball one time and threw it to first base and got the kid out, the second time he threw it to the pitcher to get the kid out at home, didnt succed at the one but hey he knew what he was suppose to do! I was really impressed with his progress this year!

Kristofer was the catcher during his game today, he loves that position and I must say he is really good at it! He had a really good hit today also but he did get out at first but hey he did good thats all that matters. I'm just amazed how much he has grown in playing baseball he is really gifted at this. He has natural abiltiy is what all the coaches say which is awesome. All the coaches are constantly braggin on him from other teams too about how he is a great thing team player and has great sportsmanship. Which is a great thing! I'm so proud of both of them

I am looking forward to all the games this season and I know that sounds crazy to alot of people but thats the life of a mom with two active boys! I love it there will be more posted weekly about their games and how they are doing we have koltons first game on Monday and Kristofers on Tuesday ! Let the fun begin but warmer weather would be great !

It is good to Obey!

These past few months I have come to find out that it is better to obey what God wants for you to do then to do what you want! That isnt' the easist thing for me to do but is it for any of us?
We have been having Outpouring services since August at church and I have grown so much in these past months and have been challenged too! We are going to face challenges and trials in life that is just how it is but its what we do with it . I will admit it would be so easy sometimes to quit and give up but is that really easier or better not at all. In James 1:2-3 says "count it all joy when you fall into various trials knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." So we are going to have them we just have to continue having faith in God to see us through.

Back in January God started really speaking to me not that He wasnt' all along but to be honest I dont' always listen I sometimes need a shaking! So I'm a little stubborn sometimes or strong willed whatever you want to call it.. But I had been seeking God and still am for some things in my life and this is what He said through several different people during prayer time at the alter. The same word that kept being spoken was obedience. Here I thought I was being obedient, I'm going to church every time we have it I mean Sunday, wednesday and O.P services on thursday and Friday? Giving my tithes and reading my bible and praying? wasnt' that enough?
The answer for me was No it wasnt', those things are what we are suppose to do but not out of obligation or just because its the right thing to do . It should be because we desire to have more of God in our life than ever before and desire Him above anything else in our life. So God asked me to be more obedient in a few areas that I thought I was but not enough. One of those areas was in my praise and worship time, not only to be done at church while everyone can see me but in my home when no one is looking. The other area was in my prayer time. Not just asking God for all the things that I think that I need to have done in my life but really seeking Him first and letting Him be the head of my life. Not just seeking Him when things come up but everyday in every area of my life.
So the past few months I have been obedient in these areas do I have it all together NO but I know that God is a rewarder of those who dilgently seek Him. I know that God has great things in store and I just have to obey what He says to do.
When I ask my boys to do something I want them to listen and do it the first time so i dont' have to ask them over and over . So if I want my own children to obey and listen the first time I need to listen and obey God when He speaks the first time because it is better to do it when He first speaks.

blessed in the small things

I just want to take a moment and thank God for the things that we sometimes take forgranted or sometimes over look. Sometimes we get so busy with the business of everyday life that we forget about the small things in life that bring us so many blessings. When life gets so chaotic and we are surrounded by problems or just life issues we can't over look the things that God has blessed us with.
This weekend I spent so much time in cleaning the house and worry about people coming over for a coupon class it consumed me . Honestly does it really matter if we have fingerprints on the coffee table or a few toys on the floor I really dont think so ! It just made me think tonight after looking at my youngest son Kolton and seeing time flies by and how fast they really do grow, in the end it dont' matter how clean my house was or how much money we make or what we buy them that matters. All that matters at the end of the day is did I show my boys how much I love them and did I show them what being a christian is all about. Did I tell them about Jesus and not only tell them but lead by example. Because there will be a day that I will look back and want those fingerprints all over the house and toys that i can step on in the middle of the night on my floor! There will be a time that they will leave and start a family of their own and I will miss all these times that drive me crazy!
We have blessings everyday ;they are in our children sometimes yes they do drive me crazy or wear me completely out but they are blessings!

Let us never take those blessings for granted and always stop and thank God for them

Friends like family

I am so thankful for a group of friends that I know will be there anytime I need them. I remember back in high school I know right a long time ago ! But I remember trying to find that group of girls that I could hangout with and be my self . well it wasn't until I got out of high school and in my late 20's that I found a group of friends that have become more to me than a group of friends but more like extended family!
It's a great feeling to know that when I am struggling or having a bad day I can call them and I know that instead of gossiping about me and spreading rumors they pray for me and encourage me. We dont' have to compete with one another to see who can become the popular one or keep up with what each other has, but we rejoice when someone gets something new or something good happens for one of them. It's so much different than when I was younger. Now I realize what it means to have great friends. God knows exactly who we need in our lifes and I thank God for the group of friends that He has given me and I want each one of them to know how much they mean to me!




Proverbs 17:17 MSG " Friends love through all kinds of weather , and families stick together in all kinds of trouble"

Truly blessed

Everyday I am reminded how blessed I really am. I am so thankful for the gifts that God has intrusted me with;my children. I have been given two boys Krisotofer and Kolton who are simply amazing. There is nothing that I would rather be then their mom. As I sit here this night thinking over the past almost 10 years since i have this privalge to be called a mom I'm very grateful with what I have been given.

I don't have perfect children and no one does but I have awesome boys that are growing up so fast. I sit here tonight listening to my youngest sleep and thank God that he is making so much progress. I know that God has a plan for his life, i'm amazed how far he has come with what was simple for our oldest son Kristofer has been a challenge for our youngest son Kolton. It's amazing how children even coming from the same household can be so different. I thank God for their differences and embrace their uniqueness.







Kristofer has really grown up these past few months he is getting to be mature in ways that I am so thankful for . He has started to grow in the Lord which as a mom I cant be more proud of him. I always want him to know that the only way to succeed in life is to have Jesus in your life walking with you every step of the way. I know that in his life he will have to make choices and decisions but I'm thankful that as he has to do those things he has a foundation to stand on and the word of God in his heart. I know that God has a plan for his life not sure what he will do but i know what ever it is he is going to do great things! He has such a talent in alot of areas but as long as he uses the for the glory of GOd im happy !

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Kolton is a joy to be around. I thank God for his life daily. There is something special about him he has such a tender compassionate heart. He truly makes me happy , there are times when he is a challenge but I know through those times we are getting stronger. These past few months I have seen a big change in his life. Not only in what he is able to do academically but even growing in the Lord . I know he is only 7 years old but I believe that God uses children and speaks to them. Kolton has a heart for God and is constantly wanting to pray for people. The way that he worships when he is at the alter at church is a joy to watch. God has given him the talent with music. He told me that Jesus said he was going to be a Pastor when he gets bigger , I believe that with all my heart. What the enemy meant for bad God has turned it around for the good and God will get the glory.

I have to stop and thank God every day for my children, because children are a gift from the Lord.

Ok I'm back and starting this again

Well its been a long time since i posted on here but I'm back and trying to keep up with it ! Life has been pretty busy lately and I know that everyone else has been busy as well. I will post more later, I just wanted to tell everyone I'm starting this blogging thing again !

man it's been a long time

Well it's been a long time sine i updated my blog, but life has been really busy and crazy! Well just a few updates the boys are doing great getting so independant. It' a bitter sweet moment for me though, I love the fact that they can do things for themselves and then it's sad because I want them to need my help too. But thats apart of growing up I guess. Kolton has been doing incredible in school with behavior and school work God has really done something in his life I'm looking forward to what He does in days to come thru him. Krisotfer is doing good in school and getting ready to go to the state JBQ meet next weekend he is really excited about that.
Jimmy was laid off for three months but Praise God he got called back and is now working the 2nd shift 3-11 not my favorite shift but hey it's a job right ! Well I'm excited about whaqt GOd is doing in our familly and He never ceases to amaze me as the days go by.
Well I will be on here more updating but until then I hope that everyone has a great week

It's about time!!!

Well it's been all summer with no computer but i'm glad to announce that i'm finally back on and hopefully for awhile! Well heres a few updates summer has flown by us with our crazy busy lives!
We had baseball pretty much everyday of the summer vacation, and now we are playing fall baseball and that starts the 12th of september. But we are not only playing this year but also coaching the team, so this is a new experience for us.
Kristofer had fun playing all stars this year, even though it did drain him everyday. We had an ok season, we came in 1st place at terre town tournment, 2nd in west vigo, 4th in clinton and 5th in brazil. So it was a learning experience for the whole team.

Now school is underway the kids love it! I'm happy that they both got great teachers and love going to school it makes it easier to send them when they want to go! Kolton is now in kindergarten? I can't believe that he is 6 years old and I have a big boy now no baby!( at least thats what he say)! Well I'll post more later but it's been forever since I was on here and I don't want to get in the habit of being on here all the time. It can be addicting! But I just wanted everyone to know that I was back on and missed reading all your blogs I'll get caught up on reading them when the kids go to bed later tonight. Everyone have a great evening